How Do You Sleep?

by Jesse McCartney

I hated Jesse McCartney. Pero umo-okay na music nya sooooo good for him. Haha! This one's catchy but boring at first. Pero the chorus part's catchy.

Cool vid! I like the concept. Reminds me of The Fast and the Furious. I still kinda find his accent annoying. He sings RnB but his accent suits Country. Haha weird.

MARJONLANDIA: Escape From The Spherical Dragon Graveyard (Grand Premiere)

Season 1, Episode 1
April 17, 2009

I Hate It. I Just Plain Hate It.

You know what I really hate this summer?

Not just the stupid heat. Or how fast the sun burns your skin. Or not even stupid FaceBook.

You know, with all the Paranoid PD and stuff. I dunno what's going on with people. I dunno what they're thinking about. I dunno what they're doing.

Should I know all these? No. But I always get the feeling that I have to.

How do I get over this? My gahd.

Yi. She is the one I really really like. But the feeling is fading(?). I dunno. She's not into me. And I feel she doesn't trust me. So be it.

Er. He's getting into my nerves. He's there and he's not there. I just don't feel anything good's gonna happen anymore once we broke each other's trust. And we did. SO goodbye, I guess?

San. He is the one that I do not care about anymore. He is the reason why people have something to talk about. Why did I ever befriend him?

Si. I hate them. They always act like they care. Some of them really do. Some of them just backstab like there's no tomorrow. Should you always find something to hate about me? I mean, seriously, did I kill your parents for me to deserve this?

Wu. He makes me sooooo confused. Is he mad at me or what? I dont see any problem but why does he act like we have a problem.

Liu. She makes me confused, too. Yesterday, she's there for you. And then the next day when you introduce new people that she would eventually like, she doesn't give a shit anymore.

Qi. She can't feel that I'm not into her. Is it too hard to understand? Whyd she have to make me look bad? Bitterness?

Ba. She doesn't entertain suitors yet. That's what I see. I liked her before. And I'm liking her again. It's bad news, man. 'Cause I dont see myself having any chance with her.

That's all.

Am I overthinking?
Why can't I get enough dose of inspirational quotes like "Friends come and go" shit and just live by these words?
Am I really made to suffer like this?

I tend to overanalyze. That's why my relationships with people always get intricate.

I always tell some of my friends. I think it feels good that you have a psychological disorder. But now, I'm telling you people. HELL, IT IS NOT EASY.

Now I told you what I'm getting paranoid about. Sooo it's your turn to get paranoid, too. Are you Yi? Er? San?

HAHAHAHAH! I hate summer! What the fudge. Bummed to the quadrillionth power! So sad. :(

"Go with the flow"

Still trying to internalize it.

Oh gahd. I hear cats fighting. Spookyyyy. Time for bed.

-rjon-

Right Round

by Flo-Rida featuring Kesha


Hahaha. I always remember my English prof when I'm watching Flo-Rida's videos. HAHA.

Flo-Rida looked so funny in the beginning of the video. Mukha siyang tanga promise. Halatang walang alam sa acting(parang ako meron).

However, the song is awesome naman. I think I like it better than "Low" or "In the Ayer". Mas catchy. Mas nakaka-LSS. But I don't like the video that much. Haha. Nahahalata kasi yung pagka-low budget.

The girl's another Keri Hilson. Opurtunista. HAHA. Dumidikit sa mga hitmakers.

Wala lang.

#1 on my playlist since April 7, 2009.

In the Season Finale of MARJONLANDIA: Adventures in the Golden Tiger Castle (2)

Season 2, Season Finale
April 1, 2009

Alam ko. I shouldn't blog na.
Sorry. Stubborn talaga ako.
Kasiyahan ko to eh. HAHA!

Kung ganito lang naman...
Sana April Fool's na lang ang Buong Buhay na 'to!

Isang napakagandang Wednesday morning, nagising ako sa bahay namin sa Filinvest at nagstretch.
Lumabas ako at naamoy na ang hotdog, eggs and ginisang gulay sa baba.
Syempre, PG ako, baba ako kagad. Pumapak ako ng konting repolyo at tumunghay (tumingala in normal Tagalog, haha).

7.. A...M...
7 AM.
Ano meron?

May nakalimutan ba ko?
Alzheimer's...

Tita: "Bilisan mo na, pupunta ka pa ng Sampaloc."

Ay puta. CLEARANCE! Naiwan ko kasi sa Sampaloc yung uniform ko. So uuwi pa ko. Dapat ko kasing pumunta sa school by 1 PM (pero pinalabas ko na 8 AM para bigyan ako ng dagdag na pera panglunch. Haha).

Hinatid ko Tita ko papunta sa office at dumiretso sa bahay.
At papasok na ng banyo upang maligo.

Biglang nagtext ang pinsan ko.

Kuya Chris: Asan ka?
Marjon: Galing Filinvest, sa Sampaloc na. Bakit?
Kuya Chris: Kailangan kong magpa-check up. Puntahan mo nga ako sa condo ko. Di ako makatayo eh.
Marjon: Teka teka teka! Papunta na ko.
Kuya Chris: Tawag ka dito.
(landline na)
Marjon: Papunta na ko. Mag-uuniform na muna ko para diretso na ko school.
Kuya Chris: Huwag ka na pumasok!
Marjon: Bakit naman?
Kuya Chris: Kasi ULOL KA! APRIL FOOLS NGAYON!

Ay pota. May ganyan pala sa Pilipinas. Muntik ko na i-risk ang katawan ko from suffering BO dahil di ako naligo at nag-uniform lang.

Moving on. Pumunta na ko ng school ng 10 AM(Atat talaga). Umupo. Nagfathom. Problemado eh.

Una, kung papasa pa ba ko sa lecheng Filipino na yan?

Putangina talaga makakapatay ako pag bumagsak ako. Sana pala lagi akong maaga sa Filipino para napacheck ko yang mga pesteng talaarawan na yan.

Ikalawa, kung bakit ganun? Kung kelan handa ka na at balak mong sabihin sa taong yun na may gusto ko sa kanya, tsaka nya sinabing may gusto syang iba?

Aray.

Akala ko di na ko magkakaproblema sa love.

Kausap ko siya kagabi. Habang nag-eenjoy magshare tungkol sa gusto niya, isa-isang napuputol ang coronary veins at arteries ko. So yun. Nagpepretend na lang ako na I'm having fun talking to her pero in fact I'm in pain, crying inside. Behind those laughs were tears.

May pag-asa pa ba ko? Feeling ko naman magiging masaya siya sa taong yun. Kilala ko yung tao eh. Di lang basta kilala. He's my bestfriend (mukhang marami akong bestfriend, pero isa lang talaga. haha. Feeling close nga kasi ako).

So ano ginawa ko? Syempre sino tinanong ko on what to do? Bestfriend ko. Ang tanga. Eh he likes her, too. Bakit naman ako hihingi ng advice sa karibal ko?

Wala akong galit sa kahit isa sa kanila. Or tampo at least. Wala talaga. Naiinis ako sa fact na it has to be this difficult. Nagdidilemma na ko. Sino pipiliin ko?

The one you love whom youve known for a while, or the one who's been with you for a longer time who knows you better than yourself?

Nakita ko si Chiicko and Jayvi. OMG! May kasama na ko! Di ko na maiisip to. I should have fun with them. DI ako nagkamali! I lost track of what I was thinking. Sinamahan ko sila ilakad ang CSDT stuff nila at kumain kami ng napakasaraaap na liempo chops for lunch. Grabe sinabaw namin yung sauce. HAHA! Jayvi!! I miss you!! Haha!

1 PM - The Moment of Truth (ang cliche talaga)

Grabe I was too preoccupied by what I was thinking about. Nakalimutan ko. May mas malalang problema pa palang kelangang problemahin.

Salas...Obias...Perez....ENRIQUEZ.

Makukuha ko na clearance ko. Di ko pa nakikita grades ko so eto lang talaga makakapagsabi kung bagsak ako sa Filipino or kung san man.

English: PASS (Uy Thanks Ma'am Flo-Rida pero my grade is so low low low low)
Math: PASS (Alright! Di ko kailangan ng EK! HAHA!)
SA: PASS (It's meeee! All the way from Turkey!! Wala ako natutunan sayo!)
Psych: PASS (Ang saya saya. Wala rin ako natutunan pero kamusta ang grade ko dito!! HAHA!!)
Theo: PASS (Bati na kami, okay naman sya eh. HAHA Caviar Mayhem)
Bio 102: PASS (Weeeeheeee!!! Proud ako. Majors to eh.)
Bio 102 L: PASS (As expected mababa)

OMG OMG OMG

Filipino: PASS!!!!! (ALABYU CASTRO!! FRIENDS TAYO!!!!)

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Naaawa na ko sa parents ko. Pagbubutihin ko na talaga next sem. Walang line of 2! HAHA! It's a must!

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Sumama ako sa bahay ng friend ko with another friend. Hmm. Ang saya...naman nila. Haha. Pinapanood ko lang sila. At nag-iisip.

Akala nga nila galit ako sa kanila kasi sasama-sama ako, di ako magsasalita masyado. HOY! Ako lang ang may Paranoid PD dito! Walang eeksena sa show ko!

After ilang hours.
Nagsiuwian na.

Kinabukasan...

Tinext ko yung friend ko. At kinwento ko nga ang nangyayaring commotion sa loob ko.

Reply nya?

"You can't force someone you like to like you back. It hurts kasi umasa ka that there's chance. Pero in time, you'll learn to forget and move on. ro in time"

Hindi ko alam kung san nanggaling yung "ro in time". Halatang typographical error. Pero it's either ang tanga tanga nya at naulit nya ang mga katagang "Pero in time" or type nya lang magdrama at magpahabol ng linyang "Bro, in time". Dami kong nalalaman.

Anyways..

Leche talaga. Ganun ba talaga ako? Well ako kasi, pag di ko matanggap ang isang bagay na nangyayari, pinagpipilitan ko pa rin ang GUSTO ko mangyari.

Sabi niya, I shouldn't rush. 17 pa lang daw ako eh.
17 and NGSB. (Oh para sa mga tanga, No Girlfriend Since Birth yan. Masaya na kayo?)

Kelan ba unang nagka-boyfriend ang sister ko? 11 nun amp.

So doble-dobleng kahihiyan na yun on my part. Unang-una, babae sya. Ikalawa, bata sya.

Pero yun ba yun? Dahil PRESSURED ako magkaroon ng girlfriend? Napaisip ako.

Sana ganun nga. Para di masyadong masakit mabigo. Pero hindi. I genuinely feel that I love her. Love ha. Infatuation? Sana. Pero hindi eh.

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Tinext ko siya. Tinukso ko siya sa friend ko.

Girl: Bakit mo ba ko tinataboy sa kanya? Nagseselos ka ba?
Marjon: Bat naman ako magseselos? Wala akong karapatang magselos.
Girl: Seryoso ka na nyan?
Marjon: Hmm. Ata?
Girl: Parang si (censored) lang ah.
Marjon: E di seryoso na kung seryoso
Girl: Di nga? May gusto ka ba sakin?

(long pause)

Di ko alam kung ano sasabihin eh. Kung sabihin kung oo, di ako handang masaktan pa ng todo-todo to the 10th power.

Marjon: Eh kung sabihin kong oo?
Girl: Bakit di mo naparamdam sakin na gusto mo ko?

Ayun kasi. Di nya maramdaman. Ewan ko. Fault ko rin naman eh. Nilalandi ko karamihan ng mga babae. Sweet ako sa female friends ko. :) Kaya siguro, pag humihirit ako, joke lang para sa kanya.

Does she like me? Ewan ko. Ayoko naman i-like ako ng person kasi like ko sya. Gusto ko. Genuine ang feeling. As in nanggaling talaga sa kanya. Ayoko ng pilit. I told her I'm gonna give up. Pero should it be this way?

I wanna make my first relationship special. And I want it to be true and longlasting (everlasting, if possible).

So do I have to rush? Dun ang tama ni Friend. Hindi. I really need to be the passive type of person right now. I don't need to seek but I need to be sought. Yep that's what I'm gonna do.

So yun na. Masaya ang buong sem na to. At least, super dami ko nakilala. At sabi ko nga, andaming life-changing experiences kaya napakaspecial sakin ng sem na to. Mas naging realistic ako and I knew myself better than ever before.

Tingnan na lang natin kung ano mangyayari sa susunod. :)

Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely.

-Rodin

So I should drive all those problems away, live life and cherish every moment.
Main theme ng season: Go with the flow, baby!

See you next sem!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEE

XD
DX

-rjon

Be The One

by The Ting Tings


Galing! Galing! I know it's kinda late to post this. But I really like the song especially NOW. Haha. 'Cause I dont wanna be the one, making all the noise!

HAHAHA!

I think the Ting Tings is an awesome singing group(actually theyre a rock duo). It's one of those bands/groups who are really really edgy and unique. I mean, I love all of their singles but this one's the "emo-est".

#1 on my playlist since April 5, 2006.

The Show

by Lenka

I've gotta let it go..
And just enjoy the show..

Haha I know, this song's written for a girl. But the lyrics just suit me a lot right now. Haha. And good concept for the video. Good job. Haha. The melody's playful and catchy so dont you just love it?

I think she's just a one-hit wonder. I guess.

MARJONLANDIA: Adventures in the Golden Tiger Castle (2-6)

Isang semester ng controversies, rumors, pains and gains.
Ang daming nangyari. Sobra. Parang pwede ko mapagkasya ang buong buhay ko sa semester na to. Life-changing experiences. A lot o' new friends.
From Isopropyl to Booze

Una: 1611
First Glass of Beer

Icon ng Agham nun eh. Sobra. Akala ko. Di ko type lasa ng beer. I mean. Cinocondemn ko talaga ang alcohol(booze, not isopropyl) consumption. Pero wow. Dapat manonood lang talaga ako tanghalin ang bagong Icon. Pero nahatak nila ako eh. And it changed my life forever.

Dito ko rin nakilala ang una kong circle of friends outside B1. Ang 3P4 friends ko. Little did I know that this was the start of a roller-coaster ride they call "college".

Friendships grew deeper after a few months. And "Friendships" too. :)

New Characters:

Keira
Alvin
Anjo
Jayvi
Bea Codog
Kris
Chiicko

Ikalawa: DJ's House
Paskuhan Tragedy

Pagkatapos ng spaghetti at tequila shots sa bahay nila DJ...Well..

Actually tapos na siya eh. Pero gusto ko lang maging honest. Eto talaga yung nagmark ng simula ng paglayo ng loob sa sarili kong block. Ewan ko. Masyado lang talaga akong verbally aggressive kapag nanggagalaiti. The first part was, yeah, inaamin ko. Ao may kasalanan. But when I learned that these people are talking about me and practicing their scientific skills by formulating hypotheses about me. I was like. Wow. This has gone too far.

Aminin natin, paranoid ako. But I HAD something to get paranoid about. What pissed me off is that dumating pa sa extent na nag-GM sessions pa sila just to talk about me, the moves I make and their conclusions.

Pero yeah. It's a thing of the past. In a way or another, all this mayhem made me grow, know what my limitations are, and face that (oh yeah cliche na cliche) you cannot please everybody.

I did forgive them, even though I didn't accept any apologies from anyone (except for one guy). Hope they've already, too. I feel good whenever I'm with them now. Mahirap lang talaga mabalik yung dati.

Pero syempre, because people come and go(I have a lot of third and fourth year friends), they will always be my second family. :)

Sorry uli, guys.

Ikatlo: Mayric's
Boys, Curls, Valage, Shivoli

After ng variety show, dumiretso ako sa practice ng Singers. Pero I'm starting to feel that I'm not really made for this. I'm not sure if I'm responsible enough to get serious with making music. Nagtext si Keira. She wants me to go to Mayric's daw. And I did.

At first, syempre I was really really timid. But when Maffy and Joy talked to me, I realized that yeah, there's still room for more friends. The more, the merrier, the more chaotic.

And voila! Sampung rounds ng roller coaster! Mas naging controversial ang buhay kolehiyo ko. Mas masaya pero mas controversial. Kung issue lang naman ang pag-uusapan, di kami nauubusan nyan.

Ako nga lang eh. Di ko alam. Hours before I even met them, nagka-issue na ko sa kanila. Which I proved wrong naman.

New Characters:

Maffy - "So (insert name here) tell me something about yourself" :))
Joy
Fat
Frynx
Cassie
Apol
Mikko
Vane

After ilang days, kumakapal din ang stratum corneum ko sa mukha. Labas-pasok na ko sa orgroom. AT mas marami pa nakilala.

Jel
Bea Idquival
Roy
Jusef
Ja
and a lot mooooooore.

Ikaapat: DJ's Nook
This is For My People Who Just Lost Somebody
(sana may makagets ng title)

Eto talaga. Hay nako. Highlight kung highlight. Ikumpara natin sa isang piraso ng Watusi ang nalalaman ko sa mga bagay-bagay bago ang inumang 'to. Pagkatapos ng inuman, ikumpara na lang natin sa Sinturon ni Hudas.

POTA talaga. Mas nagulo buhay ko (in both good and bad ways). Sabi nga ni Maffy, kung dati sabik na sabik ka malaman kung may issues ba, ngayon, mga issue na ang lumalapit sayo at siyang itataboy mo sa dami.

New Character:
Drew

Ikalima: Balay
Kiss Lips, Lick Tongue, Rub Toes, Lock for 5 seconds

Dahil tinatamd kami ni DJ tapusin ang dalawang term paper, nakipag-inuman muna kami.

Haha. Ewan ko sa inyo ah pero ito talaga ang dirtiest inuman na napuntahan ko. HAHA. May life-changing experience din ako dito. Hmmmm. Ano kaya yon? Kayo na lang bahala mag-assume kasi assuming kayo. Bigyan ko limandaan makahula. HAHA.

Syempre kamusta naman ang mga term paper namin?

New Characters:
Bebang
Rhein
Charles
Mickmack

Ikaanim: Tapsi
Tapsi and Tipsy

Ay di pala tipsy. First time ko malasing. Yung lasing talaga ah.

"Hello!! It's me!! All the way from Turkey!!"

New Characters:
Abby
Ina

Ikapito: Fontana
1..2..3..

Ewan ko. Masaya siya. Pero isa 'to sa mga pinakamalabong araw ng buhay ko. Naghahanap ako ng kasagutan sa aking mga katanungan. And I want it now.

And I got what I wanted naman. Haha. Nalinawan na ko.

Kung iisipin, masyado ba kong ineenjoy ang college life ko? Nakalimutan ko na bang nasa UST ako para mag-aral? Feeling ng family ko, 'nababarkada' ako. At sinet-up pa ko para lang makausap ang isang counselor.

Ewan ko. Di naman ako yung taong puros inom lang eh. I mean. I still work hard for my grades.

Eh sa friendship naman tayo uli. Masaya din ako na nakilala ko sila. Pero ewan ko. Habang tumatagal, di ko na rin alam kung san ako lulugar. A person may like you for a while, and bigla bigla ka na lang aayawin dahil may nakilala na siyang mas interesting pa sayo. Well I'm not whining about it. It's just that, it's the truth. May constant companion naman ako. Pero ewan ko. Natatakot ako. Someday, things might get fucked up and we may end up killing each other. Exage pero posible.

And oh.. The end is near. Watch out for the season finale. :)

*yawn*

-rjon