VANITY

The RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Have Fun!


Despite how weird this is, it's actually one of those things that you could do over and over again without getting bored. It's fun :)

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
~ Poker Face (Lady GaGa)

I just go pokerface that's all. HAHA

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
~ Money Honey (Lady GaGa)

Wow. Mukhang pera? Hahaha

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
~ Slow Dance (Keri Hilson)

Hahahha. Kakaturn-on.

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
~ Papercut (Jordin Sparks)

No way. Hahaha. Masaya kaya ako.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
~ Pump It Harder (Black Eyed Peas)

HAHAHAHAH! KAKATAWA. I'm enjoying this.

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
~ Beautiful People (Nina Sky)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
~ Filthy Pop (Lady GaGa)

I'm Mr. Pop!

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
~ Empire State of Mind (Jay-Z)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
~ Sabihin (Zelle)

Actually kinda..

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
~ Patron Tequila (Paradiso Girls)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
~ Use Somebody (Kings of Leon)

USER AKO?? HAHA

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
~ Obsessed (Mariah Carey)

Sobra naman yun.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
~ TiK ToK (Ke$ha)

Puro party??

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
~ You Are The Music In Me (HSM)

Actually it's true. We were in a cab when we heard this last time.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
~ Good Girls Go Bad (Cobra Starship)

COOL! HAHAHA!

HOW'S YOUR SEX LIFE?
~ Inseparable (Mariah Carey)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
~ LoveStruck (V Factory)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
~ Jump (Flo-Rida)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
~ S.O.S Let the Music Play (Jordin Sparks)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO RIGHT NOW?
~ DROP IT LOW (Ester Dean feat Chris Brown)

HELL YEAH. HAHA

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
~ PAPARAZZI (Lady GaGa)

HAHAHA!

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
~ Vanity (Lady GaGa)

Good title!

BAT PURO LADY GAGA? SOMETHING's wrong with my iTunes. HAHA Mas marami akong B.E.P. songs dito. Walang K-pop na napili.

I. Hate. You.

You know what? You want me to keep it real? Im not gonna lie. I HATE YOU.

I hate you. Sometimes, you just tell me things which are irrational. You tell me to do things you can't even do. You can be yourself. But I can't.

I hate you for being so bossy. I hate you for being insensitive. YES, you are insensitive.

Sometimes, people tell someone's insensitive but sometimes, they're just damn wrong. They're just too much sensitive. I've thought of that, too. I was always giving you reasons to prove to myself that you're right, or you're doing nothing wrong. I was always like, "Maybe I was just too sensitive" or "Maybe you didn't mean it that way". But no. You are INSENSITIVE.

You always put yourself into situations you know I wouldn't like, and if I wouldn't allow you to, it's going to look like I'm depriving you of doing what you like.

One thing I really don't like is that you show me that you don't want me around. Because we already see each other often. And for me, somewhere near you is such a happy place to be -- and sitting right next to you, hugging you, kissing you on the cheeks, is such a happy thing to do.

But, no. At first. You were telling me that you're crazy about me. I was like, the hell I care. You wanted to be with me every single time it's possible. And when we aren't, you always text me -- you're even upset whenever I don't reply.

But what is this? Is this something you do before you break up with someone? You don't even text that often anymore, and very recently, you told me you were sleepy (not an excuse) and you were talking to your "bestfriend" (hell you did not just say that).

Looks like to me that you're getting tired of seeing me. I never do. I always want to cuddle you as if I'm stuck on you. We're too dipoles with a hydrogen bond.

You threaten me that you're going to leave me if I do something that upsets you. I hate it when you do that.

But that's all I can do. I just hate you. And it ends there. I can't do anything more than that. I'm really stuck with you no matter what. Even adding another highly-reactive substance to the concoction wouldn't be enough to break our bond.

And because of that, I can't help but think about more things that I hate about you.

I hate it when you're around. Because I know, that in a while, you're gonna step out of that door, which will make me crave for you, drive me insane thinking of you.

I hate you for being the only person to make me feel like I'm the luckiest man alive. You really do. It makes me feel that no one is capable of what you do. Sometimes, the best things that other people do is no match to what you do worst.

For several months, I haven't been myself, myself as in what I was before the day we met. You looked at me like you didn't care I was there. But goodness, you liked me. :D After two months, wow, we were actually talking. You even cut your class just to talk to me for the first time.

I hate you being so unpredictable, makes me like you even more.

I was, and still am, in shock. You weren't part of the plan. You were someone I prevented from coming. You were someone I nearly haven't known. Ever.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you because I love you! Those things I've said earlier, man oh man, I forget them when I see you smiling at me, looking straight into my eyes.

And I hate you because the words "cheesy" and "baduy" don't mean anything to me anymore. One proof: this whole thing that you're reading.

There are no regrets. Everything we've been through is everything I would like to happen in my life. And may God help me learn to be more patient with you and find ways to change you.

I love you.

:D

-FicWrite

MARJONLANDIA: Adventures in the Golden Tiger Castle (3-2)

Season 3, Episode 2
June 11, 2009

Still Defining Friendship

Foolish.
Foolish, paranoid Marjon.

Well, isang buwan na ang nakalipas at ramdam na ramdam ko ang pressure!!! Sobra. Busy-busyhan eh. Feeling diligent. Kunwari nag-aaral. Mauuwi lang sa text. Kunwari nag-o-orgwork, nakikipaghalakhakan lang sa mga officers.

Oh well, choice ko to. Sasali pa ko ng Mediartrix mga tsong. Tapos balak ko mag-girlfriend ngayon. Tapos tatakbo na rin ako ng EB ng council. At goal ko pala mag DL. Haha. O diba suicide.

Sa nagdaang buwan, naramdaman ko na laging may nagbobother sakin. Awkwardness sa classroom. YES.

Bakit ganito feeling ko? Feeling ko outgrouped pa rin ako? Am I being paranoid again or some of them doesn't really like me. Pweh.

Number 1: Awkward ako kay #1. Dati super kulit naman nya sakin.
Number 2: Sa kanya din, awkward. Pero minsan nangangamusta lang pero wala na talaga yung kulit eh. Tsk.
Number 3: Awkward din minsan kay #3. Pero nagpapakita naman sya ng kabutihan sakin kahit papano. Miss ko na yung dati. :(
Number 4: Nakipag-ayos na sya sakin. And I'm trying my best to avoid conflicts with this person. Pero minsan foul magsalita eh. Insensitive ba sya o nananadya lang? Di na lang ako kumikibo kasi baka mabugbog ko pa sya at ako na naman ang mali sa harap ng tao.
Number 5: Hay. Di ko na alam. Para bang wala kaming pinagsamahan. Tsk. Nagpakumbaba naman ako.

Bakit ba? Bakit ba ako na lang laging talo? Pag lumaban ka sa isa. Pag-uusapan ka ng grupo na para bang pinatay mo mga kamag-anak nila.

Ewan ko ba pagod na ko. Wapakels na ko sa inyo.

"Andito naman kami."

Sabi yan ng nanay kong si Monica. Haha. Truly, mas napalapit na talaga loob ko sa kanila kesa sa sarili kong block. Eh kasi naman paranoid talaga ako noh. Ang hirap magbago, but at least I'm trying.

Kanina. Ang saya sa orgroom. Nanonood lang kami ni Baby at Imam sa Dreamgirls show nina Jusef, Frynx, Aldrin at Monica. Bentang benta. Haha. Ang sakit ng panga ko.

Hay.

After 1 year, wala na sila. Karamihan kasi ng good friends ko ay 4th year na ngayon. Ewan ko feeling ko compatible ang wavelengths namin.

Aaaminin ko. Kailangan ko talaga ng ATTITUDE ADJUSTMENT. Kung meron lang rehab para dyan, matagal na ko magaling. Gusto ko pantay-pantay. Kung ano pinapakita mo sa kanya, yun ang ipapakita mo sakin. Kailangan pinapansin mo ko lagi. Kailangan makikinig ka sa problems ko. Kailangan makulit ka sakin. OO. Demanding akong kaibigan. Mahilig kasi ako mag-expect (and sometimes, mandikta).

Kasi maganda ang pakikitungo ko sayo.

"Never compare what others did for you to what you did for them."

Sabi yan ni Monique. Tama nga naman sya. Di mo kailangan manumbat. Tumulong ka kasi gusto mo; hindi dahil nag-eexpect kang tutulungan ka rin niya.

Siguro nga kailangan ko muna ng miracle para ma-internalize ko yun overnight.

That reminds me. Si Friend B. Haha. Wala lang. Naaalala mo ba sya? Ayun. Ganun ako sa kanya. Feeling ko anlaki ng tinutulong ko sa kanya kaya kailangan handa sya makinig sa mga reklamo ko sa mundo.

Si Friend A. Naging friends kami uli. Away. Bati. Away. Bati. Eventually, narealize na lang namin na walang kwenta. Walang kwenta.

Bakit marami ba kong nakakabangga? Sila ba yung may problema? Lahat ba sila masama ang ugali? Pero hindi eh. Ayon sa isang topic namin sa Christian Ethics:

"What is right is what the majority believes to be right."

So..I guess I'm the one who has the fucking problem

Sa larong "Killers" (the kindatan game), I've always hated to be the killer. Cause I have to act like I'm innocent like most of the people because what I naturally do is against the majority.

In real life, ganun pa rin. You have to act like them and please them because you don't want them to see that youre not "in the group".

Foolishness. This obliterates one's sense of individuality. Kung backstabber ang leader ng grupo, backstabber ka na rin. Urgh. Annoying.

Anyway, sa grupong tinutukoy ko. Di ko naman nilalahat. Some of them really are getting into my nerves but I have no choice but to shut up because if I "wink" and somebody catches me:

"I'm dead,."

Wala na. I just couldn't afford to make an effort anymore. If I do, wala na kong pride nun. Na pareho lang sa pagsubsob ng mukha mo sa putik.

Basta kung alam nyo kung sino kayo. Kung di pa rin kayo napapagod sa pagsasalita against me, you better be, kasi alam niyo naman kung sino mananalo sa huli. Wala. Sayang effort nyo.

Marjon is paranoid no more.

-rjon

P.S. Marami pa rin sa kanila ang good friends. So don't get me wrong. Still love a lot of my blockmates.

How Do You Sleep?

by Jesse McCartney

I hated Jesse McCartney. Pero umo-okay na music nya sooooo good for him. Haha! This one's catchy but boring at first. Pero the chorus part's catchy.

Cool vid! I like the concept. Reminds me of The Fast and the Furious. I still kinda find his accent annoying. He sings RnB but his accent suits Country. Haha weird.

MARJONLANDIA: Escape From The Spherical Dragon Graveyard (Grand Premiere)

Season 1, Episode 1
April 17, 2009

I Hate It. I Just Plain Hate It.

You know what I really hate this summer?

Not just the stupid heat. Or how fast the sun burns your skin. Or not even stupid FaceBook.

You know, with all the Paranoid PD and stuff. I dunno what's going on with people. I dunno what they're thinking about. I dunno what they're doing.

Should I know all these? No. But I always get the feeling that I have to.

How do I get over this? My gahd.

Yi. She is the one I really really like. But the feeling is fading(?). I dunno. She's not into me. And I feel she doesn't trust me. So be it.

Er. He's getting into my nerves. He's there and he's not there. I just don't feel anything good's gonna happen anymore once we broke each other's trust. And we did. SO goodbye, I guess?

San. He is the one that I do not care about anymore. He is the reason why people have something to talk about. Why did I ever befriend him?

Si. I hate them. They always act like they care. Some of them really do. Some of them just backstab like there's no tomorrow. Should you always find something to hate about me? I mean, seriously, did I kill your parents for me to deserve this?

Wu. He makes me sooooo confused. Is he mad at me or what? I dont see any problem but why does he act like we have a problem.

Liu. She makes me confused, too. Yesterday, she's there for you. And then the next day when you introduce new people that she would eventually like, she doesn't give a shit anymore.

Qi. She can't feel that I'm not into her. Is it too hard to understand? Whyd she have to make me look bad? Bitterness?

Ba. She doesn't entertain suitors yet. That's what I see. I liked her before. And I'm liking her again. It's bad news, man. 'Cause I dont see myself having any chance with her.

That's all.

Am I overthinking?
Why can't I get enough dose of inspirational quotes like "Friends come and go" shit and just live by these words?
Am I really made to suffer like this?

I tend to overanalyze. That's why my relationships with people always get intricate.

I always tell some of my friends. I think it feels good that you have a psychological disorder. But now, I'm telling you people. HELL, IT IS NOT EASY.

Now I told you what I'm getting paranoid about. Sooo it's your turn to get paranoid, too. Are you Yi? Er? San?

HAHAHAHAH! I hate summer! What the fudge. Bummed to the quadrillionth power! So sad. :(

"Go with the flow"

Still trying to internalize it.

Oh gahd. I hear cats fighting. Spookyyyy. Time for bed.

-rjon-